My first love

      Do you still remember your first love or perhaps your first kiss? I still remember mine.

      He was the most gorgeous Filipino guy that I dated for 5 years off and on and was my first kiss too. Let's call him Thata. Thata was the youngest among 4 and all boys. I never knew he existed before, that one summer day of 1995. He live in San Fernando close to my Nanay. Every fiesta I always get this love notes from this boy name Thata. I think it started when I was in high school. Never paid attention to it as I always get those "notes" or sometimes "regards" from kids of the same age. Being from the city whenever we are in San Fernando, we are the "sikat" especially during fiesta. Fiesta of 1995, just arrived in Nanays house when someone yelled in the kitchen, "Regards si Thata In", being a snobbed I ignored it. Thata always had friends that he hangs out with all the time. Who was about the same age as him. Summer of 1996, Papa and mama for the first time gave Resty and I a chance to spend our vacation in Nanays house. To us, that was the longest, 2 weeks. We were so excited because it will be the first time that we will be away from mama and papa and being there during the harvest of the star apples and sininguwelas. I didn't know that, that year I will have my first boyfriend.

      Thata was 2 years older than me. He used to tell my cousin of how much he liked me because I am very nice and beautiful. I thought that was bull. I had so many zits and who would like me I thought. One day, my cousin Adelyn and I went out to get some bayabas (guavas) in our grandma's field but I didn't know it was a set-up. Adelyn knew that Thata will be coming also. By the way, Thata is Adelyn's uncle in her father's side (her father's uncle's son, confusing?). Adelyn's mom is my aunt. So I thought how convenient. Few minutes after, I saw someone coming. Thata was with another kid about Adelyn's age. I thought he was cute (Thata). That was the first time I ever had a good look of his face. 5'11" , tanned and he has this gorgeous nose and eyes. I have always been facinated with the height and the nose because I am not that gifted. He introduced himself. I was speechless, my heart was pounding like it had never pound that fast before. Adelyn and the other kid both left. I was sitting on one of the guavas branches and he was standing by me, making sure that I am not going to fall off the branch. He then told me how much he liked me and how long he had been waiting for this day. I told him I didn't have any clue. The one thing that stuck me the most was when he said these lines: Every summer I see you and your family come visit your grandma. Every summer I wait and hope to see a glimpse of you but you never stayed long and you are always guarded. I used to tend the cow and just stare at you from a distance (they own lands and cows, sa bukid lagi). I told myself that one day, I will make you my girlfriend. I told myself that every summer . I didn't know what to say. I don't want to be one click, alam nyo na sa atin. I pretended that I didn't like him and of course I kept the distance. He was graduating in college(seaman) then and I was going on my 1st year college. He always tell me that teachers are good wives, "kay ikabilin daw sa balay". Papa had a strict policy about not having boyfriends while in school but it was worth a try .

      I kept our relationship secret but he tried to tell the world we are together. My aunts from mama's side was not too happy when they knew but I begged them to keep it secret from my parents. We continued to see each other. Sometimes he would surprise and pick me up from school. A walk from the school to Colon was all we had. Then we take our separate jeepneys but it was shortlived. I didn't hear from him again. Sometimes I visit San Fernando but he wasn't there. He was a gentleman and I really liked him. A year after, he was scheduled to join his brother to work abroad. We were not able to say goodbye. Without a phone, cellphone and with my strict parents it was hard. I was hurt but I moved on. I felt he abandoned me. He later told me that during the time he graduated college and was waiting for his brother, he didn't have the face to show me and my parents because he was jobless. He said he regretted it greatly. He had never been in our house because he was so afraid of my parents. Although he had been in my aunt's houses and grandma because everytime he knows that I am in town, he always make it a point to visit me.

        Fourth year college, I got a postcard from Thata addressed to the school. I wasn't expecting to hear from him anymore. He knew my major was Social Sciences and was always facinated with the Egyptians. He got me a postcard from Egypt. He wrote: he still think of me greatly and he misses me. I wanted to answer him so bad but the only address that was in the postcard was Port of Malaysia. Till this day, he can't believe I did not reply to him. I told him that there was no suffecient address. He argued that he wrote the entire address and I argue the opposite. He thought I didn't like him anymore so when he came home, he courted someone else, another teacher. Adelyn already warned me about the other girl. I told her it was ok. Fiesta of 1999, I hosted and sang on a singing contest and at the end of the song, he had the loudest clap. It was him waving at me, with the biggest smile. I had mixed emotions. I have never seen him for almost 3 years. After the contest he wanted to talk to me but I declined. I don't want to be seen with the other girl. To make the long story short, he had made several girl friends and I did to. Even if everytime we see each other, there is always an attempt to get back together. The begging and all. I think if I replied to his postcard, it is probably us today but I never had any regrets. Whenever he is around, he always made me feel special and the most beautiful person in the crowd. I don't know how but I just feel it. Although, I felt abandoned and that was it for me. He didn't get married though although he knew he can afford (working abroad for years) till I got married. January of 2003 we talked briefly over the phone. Adelyn gave her our phone number. He asked me if it's ok that he will going to marry someone. I told him yes, I was going to get married that year anyway. Last time I heard, he has 1 son.

    I hope he is happy because I am.

Comments

[karen gellacone]

in my case, I dont want to remember my first love or even talk about my first love if I live happily with my new love, forget about him. Make a post about your husband, my opinion.

[someone]

ate ah.. drama mo! hehehe.. my first love? hmm.. i cant remember.. so many eh.. hehehe.. anyways.. see you at work!

may pasok na!!

[Charmaine]

Well, some says "first love never dies". I think they're right, some of us have bad experiences of their first love but some also have good memories. Its nice to think about it once in a while. In my case, i had a good/bad memories of the guy that i first in love with, which i thank him for that cause i've learned what love really means. Its nice to love and be loved by someone for the very first time, but its not fun to get hurt. When you feel hurt by your first love, thank Him cause it's also the way for us to be mature and grow up emotionaly...

[Jet]

That's a nice story In. He must have been a very romantic guy. As for me, well..my first love is my husband..first kiss and all..no regrets! Stay Happy!

[Aibeen]

That's a nice story IN! I grew up with strict parents myself. Kutob lang ko MU sauna :)...Hahay, those were the days but I've got no regrets. My husband is my first and last!:) I admire your positive attitude and to think you can even write about it. I enjoyed reading. Post more!

[In-in]

Karen, thanks for the visit. I had made entries about my husband before. From the very first time we met and now that we are married. You must have missed it. Do not worry I am happy with my husband. You had a bad experience with your first boyfriend but I didn't. It doesn't mean I could not share mine right? My husband even read this entry with me. Thanks for your opinion.

Charmaine, I totally agree with you.

Jetty, nice to see you here. I will check your profile later.

Aibeen, He was my past. Why not talk about it, right? Take Care, I haven't seen you in the forum lately. Ikaw nalang kuwang didto. They are talking about the scammer again sa bag-o na forum.

[In-in]

Oppsss... Abby diay.

[In-in]

Karen, sorry if I struck a nerve. For me, we can still be happy even if we sometimes remember people in the past. I was hurt before too, so many times but I manage to laugh at it now. I have moved on and they have moved on. So we all be happy and let's move on. :o)

[Jet]

hello In, unsa na forum? hehehe..nabalik na ang asawa?..let me know ok. Thanks.

P.S.
I think its quite interesting reading your story..makes me fall in love over again with Dave... I guess You and Ryan are destined to be together. Stay In Love!

[Aibeen]

Aibeen or Abby oks lang. My friends here sa US Abby ilang tawag nako. My name real name is hard to remember kuno. I came up with Abby kay para di ko sige explain about my name hehehe! Yeah, I've seen and read that thread. I honestly don't have time to spare. I just don't know why she hates me, never did do anything to her. Even when she was mean, I may have been sarcastic at times with my replies then, I never retorted with equal fury hehe! If you'd notice, kadtong mga na-special mention niya, our hubbies are not way older than us (me, Sarah, Lee, Becca, Irene, etc.), which is in contrast of what she's saying about our husbands. God bless her. I hope she sees the error in her ways.

[Dauphine]

Hi In nice story you have here.. Makahinumdom man sad ta sa atong kaagi ani oi hehe! Naa jud baya times nga makahinumdom ta sa atong past experience and of course why not they were our first love diba! Kabantay ka we can just express all our feelings once wala natay love nila since nana tay bana pod hehe! Thanks for sharing in. Congratulations to you for being preggy.. Take care!

[Jet]

Hello In, Thanks sa link!

Oh wow!! i'm happy for you. Always take care of yourself kay most critical stage of pregnancy kay ang first trimester. Why is everybody pregnant?lol..Ako pud ate preggy xa 5 months na..grabeh na akong baby blues ani! na as in makainggit mo dah!

Anyway, Have fun and Enjoy life!

[In-in]

Dauph, thank you. Bura pilahay pa man to na si Nicholette baby pa kaayo karon one year na.

Jet, sos bata pa kaayo ka uy. Unsaon man kami ni Ryan mag 28 na mi this year so it's about time na jud.

[karen gellacone]

Hello friend, good to hear that. I just want you to know that I didnt have any boyfriend before, and my husband was my first thats why maybe I coulndt relate to you, well it was a good post..
take care..

[karen gellacone]

Sometimes my husband mentioned about his first love and I hate it because I wished i had one too LOL para kasi di fair!!

[karen gellacone]

may natatandaan ako, merong isang lalaki na una kong nakilala but sa internet lang at yup minahal ko siya at siya yung una lalaki nagpatibok ng aking puso pero hindi ko alam hindi ako sigurado kong totoo pag ibig nga ba kac di ko siya nahahawakan, I mean di kami nagkita sa personal pero kahit past na yun, andito parin siya sa alaala...but mas love ko hubby ko...at para sa aking ang asawa ko an aking firstlove kasi siya una boyfriend ko ever...

[In-in]

Karen, that is nice to hear.